My husband has been out of town since Sunday, and since then I've been on my own with the kids. I've had moments where I have felt completely fine, mentally, and my thoughts are clear and fine. Today, I need to feel like that and I don't, so I am being super careful. Today I feel like I could just totally fall apart, but I can't. My back pain is really getting to me. For the first time, I am feeling some regret for having my reduction. I hate feeling helpless, and that's how I have been feeling. Still, my kids need me to be strong, so I'll just fake it til I feel it, I guess. About to watch my son's baseball game. It's not his first game this year, but it is the first I've made it to. The weather is hot, but I have a nice shady spot with a fantastic breeze, so I feel good, other than my butt falling asleep on these hard bleachers. Yesterday, I went out and got errands done without my walker, but I am using it today. Not feeling as strong or as stable as I did, and better safe than sorry.
Tomorrow I have another appointment with my plastic surgeon, and I get the rest of my staples out, and hopefully find out the state of my right nipple. I think its just a dead skin layer, but I'm no expert. I am still looking forward to being able to see a chiropractor, but that is still a few weeks away.
I've been sleeping in my bed, and sleeping pretty well. I wake up a lot, roughly every 2 hours, but I roll over and get right back to sleep. Still, I feel exhausted. I went to bed at 9 last night, and other than getting the kids up and off to school, didn't get up til 1 this afternoon. I need a vacation from life lol.
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